Podcasts
I love podcasts. I get a lot out of them! I became a bit podcast obsessed during the height of the pandemic and I attribute much of the personal growth I have had to the conversations I have heard.
Love and understand of self has been a long overdue process for me. I have worked really hard to get to know and understand myself. Prior to about 8 months ago, I got ALL of my validation from external forces. I had been very mean to myself for a very long time. I had a decent amount of trauma to process and was existing in a really immature mindset. I had to recognize that I was, in many ways living in a mindset of my 16 year old self. I was stuck there because of my trauma. Trauma is such a dramatic term that I resisted it for my entire adult life. BUT, I finally allowed myself to see that becoming pregnant at 15 is TRAUMA and the experience immediately and forever changed my life. Our brain development is so intense during puberty! I am immensely proud of my ability to compartmentalize my experience, put it behind me and move forward. I have used the same technique getting through other difficult things I have experienced. Having said that, while I gained some coping skills I also began a shame spiral that still challenges me to this day.
All of this is to say: It is possible to change and grow and parent yourself better. It is really, really hard and I have ups and downs in my abilities to be kind and accepting of myself, but more days than not my headspace is positive.
Listening to podcasts and conversations with some of my favorite people whose voices resonate with me serve as little 'tune ups' for self awareness and exploration.
Practically everyone has a podcast these days! Seek out influential people you like or topics that intrigue you and watch how your mind expands.
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