I'm back after a lengthy time away. I want to get back to writing.. it is good for me to share with YOU. I've been trying to change the name of the blog (without success) because I am not a single gal in the same sense I was a single gal in the past... I am still a single gal now in the sense that, well... that's the box I check.
Now I am with TOM! Wonderful Tom. 2.5 years together, 2 year living together. Life is good! It very nice to meet your lobster!
I'm in a time of seeking... seeking to understand myself more... seeking peace... seeking to let myself be as I am.
A struggle I have is basing my love of self on if others love me. I set unreasonable expectations that if others don't love, accept AND understand me... then I cannot love, accept and understand myself. That is a lot of pressure on me. and YOU!
A great example of this is my tattoos. I have them. They are very telling about me...I put it all out there. I love my tattoos. I want you to love my tattoos. There in lies the trouble. If I even perceive that you don't like them, then I have doubt and don't like them. How exhausting! I want to love them because I love them. I have to trust that you may or may not love, accept or understand me, but some people do and that is quite nice.
I'm seeing a Life Coach and she is great for me. I have tried therapy in the past and it has helped on occasion. This feels better.. like a mentor.
I want to constantly evolve. I want to improve and change. Instead of a mid life crisis I am hoping for a mid life experience.
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