second verse... same as the first

So, K and I had a fun time. We really did. He is generous and kind and handsome and wonderful. We had laughs and romance.
But.
You knew there would be a but...
It is another dead end. Another failure of sorts in the romance department for me.

I found myself in the mode of trying to convince YET ANOTHER MAN that I am worth being with. It gets very old. How is it so different for so many other women??? They meet a man. man wants to be with them (and they with him). They date. They marry. They are happy. End of story. (* I realize there are sad, failed marriages as well)

I am so frustrated.

Being a nurse and a little on love

It's Fun! Being a nurse that is. I am enjoying it so far. I am working with my preceptor, meeting all the staff and generally feel like I am fitting in just fine.

I suppose it is common for people to find their calling later in life. If I had known I wanted to be a nurse back when I was 18 I would be a well seasoned nurse by now and I would be making the BIG bucks. Ah well, I will learn the ropes and be lightly seasoned before I know it.

I think the 3 day work schedule is going to be sweet! It works perfectly for me... the gal who wants all the time off she can get.

This week I get to see my friend K. He is someone I have know for many, many years. I like him, he likes me, but somehow we have never made the leap to actually being together and making it work. I am hopeful that we may be closer than ever to making the leap. I am not afraid. But he is... I don't want to be in a situation of having to convince him (or anyone else for that matter!) that we should be together. That is exhausting and not a lot of fun for me. If he comes around.... GREAT! But I want easy. I want someone who is my champion and I his. I want love and romance and fun and.... all the good stuff that comes with being with the right person. I have no disillusions that any relationship can be perfect... but when you are equally yoked it can come pretty close.
I think.
I hope.