Graduation day

Oh my! What a day, what a fun and perfect day. I am so overwhelmed by the love and support of my family and friends. I feel completely undeserving of all the showering of love and gifts and hugs, but I am wildly thankful.

Attention is a funny thing for me. I admit I crave it.... and I need lots of affirmation... but at the same time it makes me anxious because of the undeserving part that I mentioned above.

But the message of today is that I am happy. And proud. And mostly content. And lucky.
lucky, Lucky, LUCKY.

Spoke too soon

I have got to learn to not get ahead of myself. Lastest man... Gone. With no explanation, no falling out, he is just inexplicably done with me.
I thought it was going great... I got excited... I was smiling like the proverbial cat who ate the canary...
This week. I am gloomy and pessimistic and oh so blue.
Insane I tell you.
Insane.