wide awake

I am not sure why I am awake, but here I am writing at 2:42 am. I am quite the sleeper most of the time. It is almost Olympic how proficient I am at it. I love to dream and just think that sleep is awesome.
But, sometimes... I find myself awake and not getting back to sleep. Alot of times I realize I am hungry.. Tonight was one of those times. So I got up and had pretzels and milk (have you tried it? Good snack!)
This is hard to explain, but I think I have trouble sleeping when I don't feel like myself. When I feel challenged or threatened... or just like I am not being my authentic self. I know I will stay up worrying when I feel I didn't express myself right, was put on the spot or said something I regret.
Geesh! The life of a worrier :)
Well, I am going to try again for some peaceful slumber... maybe here on the couch... sometimes I just need a change of scenery.

False start

Well sort of. When I got to school yesterday, I found out that I don't go back again until July 27th. We work from home, online, at our own pace. So I get to continue being a woman of leisure for a bit longer. No complaints here!!! I could really get used to this... wait, I have!

Here we go!

Tomorrow is the big day! After much anticipation, I start nursing school. I am excited and nervous about what it will be like... but isn't that true for any new endeavor.
I find myself mourning the time off I have relished for the last 5 weeks... but isn't it also true that all good things must end?
I have been so unstressed... I have lost alot of my self consciousness and self worry.... I hope I can keep it at bay even when the stress of school begins.
Oh and I hope I can get up in the morning!! I know I will do it, but I hate it. 6:15 am will come so soon. Ah well, such is life.
I hope to meet great people and plan to start this journey with a great attitude!